The last post had a normal happy ending with things beginning to fall in the right place. For me those days started becoming the best days of my life. After the boards exam I went to Dehradun to join Aakash coaching classes at Ballipur chowk branch. I joined the classes there and started staying as a paying guest. It was the first time that I was living somewhere outside my hometown. It was a crash course that I joined in April and was scheduled to end around 22nd April. It was a short time for preparing for AIEEE and since my basics were all shaken up, it was not at all an easy task. Also with me in the same batch was Soheb and that was also one facotr which made my mind up to join coaching in Dehradun. My physics literally sucked big time and the other subjects were not showing good numbers. The faculty there was not at all bad. Although to understand what the chemistry sir was speaking was fairly difficult and the maths sir's class went drooling most of the time. The class which stood out was of physics. The teacher who taught physics is the best ever I've been taught by. The guy taught superbly and helped me quite a lot to improve. My class timings at Aakash was from 6'O clock in the morning to 1:30 PM. Those were pretty long hours that I spent there. Well as you know studying was never the most fun part for me but still I gave it my best shot.
I started staying as a pg with a very nice family. The people were really nice to me. Staying there became very easy because of their splendid behavior. The food there was excellent and I started relishing home-cooked meals more and more from my stay there. My room was quite comfortable and it was some really nice time that I spent there. I used to wake up early and go for class. Had lunch on returning back which used to yummy. Studying a bit in the evening and then maybe a walk around with Soheb and his cousin.
The best part of my day in those days used to be talking to Komal. Seriously my heart never felt so full before. I was definitely very happy. I arranged a sim for her with Sharma's help and used to talk to her everyday in the evening. Literally that was the one thing that got me going. Most of the time the day we both used to be chatting through messages. Things felt so awesome.
With time my stay in Dehradun came to an end and the AIEEE exam took place on 24th April I guess. It went fine, better than it would have if I had not attended the crash course.
At home my Tau ji and Tai ji joined us as Tai ji was undergoing treatment. It was nice I got to interact a lot with Tau ji and Tai ji.
With Komal things were going pretty smooth. Chatting at nights, talking in the evening and messaging whole day. Some time later don't remember why but she returned the sim and we started talking less. We used to talk with another number she had.
Things were getting along fine......it was June as I remember.....I was thinking of getting Komal something very good for her Birthday on 6th July. In the second half of June it so happened that she had gone to Chandigarh. She was there and we talked on her number for close to an hour and a half. Now with roaming charges that summed up to a noticeable amount and then as I came to know her father got to know about us. Now there was a speculation, her mom which seemed agreeing to her being in a relationship didn't seemed so that much now. We didn't talked for a long time. No chatting...nothing.
While this was going on my Boards result came out and I managed to pass in the 1st division. Not to great result from my expectations and soon the AIEEE result came out. The AIEEE rsult also was not too great and admission time was getting started.
Also those days I got to meet Nikki didi (Tau ji's elder daughter). I didn't knew much about her then but later we interacted pretty well. Nikki didi that had to go to Chandigarh for an exam and I went with her. I hadn't been to Chandigarh much and was quite impressed by the city.
It was a very complicated situation for me in life. I had lost what I thought was love. I was not eligible for any good college. My parents tried their level best to get me into any reputed institute on a management seat but it was not to much avail. Finally after lots of traveling and headaches I was to join NIET in Noida. The college campus even though did not impressed me any bit but what could have I done. My parents came to Noida to make sure I am comfortable. I got a hostel room 216 with a guy Bhupinder.
Next was my first day in college. 1st lecture was of physics and before it started few seniors gushed in the classroom. They told us to keep our hair as short as possible and to wear white shirt black pants combo. It was very new to me and I am an adaptable person but something did not felt right there. Maybe I wasn't met to be there. I told my brother and he told my parents. My parents took a heck lot to get me to a college in Roorkee only.
The college definitely was far better that the one I was in earlier. My parents made sure I got admission and I now became COERian. It seemed bit familiar not because it was in my hometown but because it had many faces of my life like Manik, Sharma, Tushar and deadliest of'em all Komal. I got computer science there and also a hostel room, 424 I think. But soon I shifted with Rishabh Kathuria whom I met during Aakash coaching in room no. 423.
I had no idea how things were going to unfold with Komal being in the same college but I was not thinking about her. I was hopeful to get better of the place I was. Scared from the seniors and excited to meet my new class mates. College life had begun.......
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Friday, July 22, 2011
12th : The end of an era......
Its been almost an year since my last post......so am back writing on.......
Something that I missed in my previous blog about a very good friend Gurbani who is not only very sweet but also a great poetess. In fact we started interacting only because of our common interest and skill of writing poems. I posted one on a community on orkut and she scrapped me with reference to it. Then with time and interaction we became great friends. Gurbani wrote some amazing poems and I still believe she has a great talent. We both used to chat quite a lot during the 11th and 12th time period but that unfortunately got stuck somewhere during college time. I had the chance of meeting her at the end of 2009 but more on that later.
12th class well wasn't that special as I thought it would be. After what I had gone through in that one month period was like torture and so the day I went back to my class it felt different. I had a strange feeling, a feeling of revenge. Not many people were happy to see me return. Some who were were my good friends.
12th is a big class.....last year of school.....board exams......AIEEE etc. It was quite obvious that it was not gonna be easy with all the pressure of studies and with it some emotional imbalance. You know liking some one is a very bad thing at times. You don't see any thing and just walk down a path which is unknown. I was already not doing great in my studies and adding to my woes was my liking towards Komal. I was naive and thought it was more than just liking. We both used to chat every night mostly. Each time she shared her problems with me, I thought am becoming an important person in her life. Never saw it coming that those problems were so so unreal and fake. I mean seriously when I saw her I used to think of her as a simple and polite girl. What I never saw was the psychotic problem with her of sympathy gaining using made-up instances. She even went ahead to say that she is a heart patient and won't live long enough to make it to college. And I like a big dumb person believed her.
She never stopped making up stories. There was a time when I understood that she is faking it all up as it was not at all possible. But dipped in my attraction I believed she'll change and put an end to her stories.
One bad thing with me was that I never listened to my friends' advice, whether it was my friend Soheb warning me about Komal or Komal herself saying that I should not be getting into these things. I should've seen what Soheb was trying to show me about Komal.
While these things were going on school life was going fine. I was trying not to repeat my previous performances but the results still were not great. One things I did this time was not to miss tutions and I guess that's what made me cross the line in the end.
In school I used to be fun with friends. And it was like a repeated telecast of 11th with couples sitting together and me waiting to catch a glimpse of Komal in the recess. I was suffering from 'First timer's syndrome' which I discovered in college. It was the first time I was attracted towards a girl and so the level was quite high. In classes I used to pay attention and study with equal doses of fun.
Also in 12th played football after a long time and saw the return of my sliding capability. It was great fun. My last few football matches and I was not bad.
After school and tutions was the time I still cherish a lot. Nescafe or Solani, it always was great to spend some time there. It was mostly this time of the day that I used to feel very light and relaxed. Out with Soheb as Sharma had gone to Delhi and Tanmeya too went to college. So it used to be Soheb and me going around the streets of Roorkee. When it used to rain we used to go out for a ride on the long road besides Solani river. I know it didn't do great for my marks but those moments made me alive.
Nights used to begin with work out and end with chatting online. Also used to talk to Sharma quite regularly. I stayed most connected with Soheb, Sharma and Komal during this time.
Talking to Komal made me happy which used to be short lived everyday as she had a bundle of fake despairing incidents to share.
Also during 12th I became friends with Anshul Saini. Soheb, Saini and myself used to go out tripling at time but that happened quite rarely.
On 29th Sept. as I remember I proposed to Komal while chatting on the net. Well she denied and we continued talking as friends. Chatting everyday I thought she has started to understand me but that proved wrong in the later run. Also there were incidents with some fake ids by the name of suyash which as Komal said used to send her vulgar e-mails. I tried to sort it out but while doing that I noticed that those e-mails were written in a fashion resembling to the way Utkarsh talks. I knew it was just someone trying to cause a ridge b/w our friendship.
Now after the pre-boards it was the time for the much awaited Farewell. The Farewell went fine and the after party sucked at some level. Everyone was looking great and it was something I had waited for. I still remember I got there with Soheb and Anuj. When we reached there the principle Bro. George was livid for us being so late. Something that had happened before too. But in the end all went well. Lots of photos were clicked and the performances were good. Shashank's poem was extra-ordinary.
Soheb, Saini and myself got together after the farewell and made a compilation of all the pictures and videos of the farewell from everyone. We made DVDs and distributed them to as many people we could. It was a nice complilation and even though I had a part to play in the compilation, I for now don't have those pics.
Then came the Boards practicals which went fine.....u know the thing with practicals. After that some of the students including me had to give a second pre-boards as the first didn't go well for us. The second one went good and we were now looking at board exams.
It was Feb and in in lies some vicious days known by the name of Valentine week.
3 days before Valentine's day Komal told me that all the wrong going on with her life has finally sorted out and so I also started to believe that finally the stories have ended. I was very happy that now at least we will have more to talk than to console her for unrealistic problems like her grand parents trying to kill her and all that. Also that day she told me that a guy from School Shantanu has proposed her and she said no. On Valentine's day I did the same and answer was the same. I got ok with it and well started preparing for boards.
Now on 26th Feb, Komal's friend Upasana told me that Komal also has feelings for me and wanted to chat tonight. So I was very excited and was eagerly waiting.
It was past midnight when she told me that she Love me and boy I can't express what it meant for me. 2 years I've been waiting for this moment and it was finally there. It was like a dream and am very thankful to Komal for providing me that short moment of happiness. Amazing it is when you get something you have dreamt about.
Boards began from 1st March with Chemistry exam......don't really remember how well it went. Boards went fine with the dreaded physics exam. Few things happened before that exam too.
Boards finally ended and I joined coaching at Aakash institute in Dehradun. It was a crash course for preparation for AIEEE and JEE. I used to talk to Komal every day now and that time used to be the best time of the day for me.
12th went just fine for me. Soheb and Sharma became the best support for me. Komal became an important part and by the end of 12th I started thinking am living a fairytale. It was the best ending to that class as I thought. Never thought that what lied ahead was equally ugly.
Life had been pretty normal but now the twists and turns have started which help me build emotionally a lot. There were good times and now was time for the bad ones.
But all that in the next post.
Till then take care.
Something that I missed in my previous blog about a very good friend Gurbani who is not only very sweet but also a great poetess. In fact we started interacting only because of our common interest and skill of writing poems. I posted one on a community on orkut and she scrapped me with reference to it. Then with time and interaction we became great friends. Gurbani wrote some amazing poems and I still believe she has a great talent. We both used to chat quite a lot during the 11th and 12th time period but that unfortunately got stuck somewhere during college time. I had the chance of meeting her at the end of 2009 but more on that later.
12th class well wasn't that special as I thought it would be. After what I had gone through in that one month period was like torture and so the day I went back to my class it felt different. I had a strange feeling, a feeling of revenge. Not many people were happy to see me return. Some who were were my good friends.
12th is a big class.....last year of school.....board exams......AIEEE etc. It was quite obvious that it was not gonna be easy with all the pressure of studies and with it some emotional imbalance. You know liking some one is a very bad thing at times. You don't see any thing and just walk down a path which is unknown. I was already not doing great in my studies and adding to my woes was my liking towards Komal. I was naive and thought it was more than just liking. We both used to chat every night mostly. Each time she shared her problems with me, I thought am becoming an important person in her life. Never saw it coming that those problems were so so unreal and fake. I mean seriously when I saw her I used to think of her as a simple and polite girl. What I never saw was the psychotic problem with her of sympathy gaining using made-up instances. She even went ahead to say that she is a heart patient and won't live long enough to make it to college. And I like a big dumb person believed her.
She never stopped making up stories. There was a time when I understood that she is faking it all up as it was not at all possible. But dipped in my attraction I believed she'll change and put an end to her stories.
One bad thing with me was that I never listened to my friends' advice, whether it was my friend Soheb warning me about Komal or Komal herself saying that I should not be getting into these things. I should've seen what Soheb was trying to show me about Komal.
While these things were going on school life was going fine. I was trying not to repeat my previous performances but the results still were not great. One things I did this time was not to miss tutions and I guess that's what made me cross the line in the end.
In school I used to be fun with friends. And it was like a repeated telecast of 11th with couples sitting together and me waiting to catch a glimpse of Komal in the recess. I was suffering from 'First timer's syndrome' which I discovered in college. It was the first time I was attracted towards a girl and so the level was quite high. In classes I used to pay attention and study with equal doses of fun.
Also in 12th played football after a long time and saw the return of my sliding capability. It was great fun. My last few football matches and I was not bad.
After school and tutions was the time I still cherish a lot. Nescafe or Solani, it always was great to spend some time there. It was mostly this time of the day that I used to feel very light and relaxed. Out with Soheb as Sharma had gone to Delhi and Tanmeya too went to college. So it used to be Soheb and me going around the streets of Roorkee. When it used to rain we used to go out for a ride on the long road besides Solani river. I know it didn't do great for my marks but those moments made me alive.
Nights used to begin with work out and end with chatting online. Also used to talk to Sharma quite regularly. I stayed most connected with Soheb, Sharma and Komal during this time.
Talking to Komal made me happy which used to be short lived everyday as she had a bundle of fake despairing incidents to share.
Also during 12th I became friends with Anshul Saini. Soheb, Saini and myself used to go out tripling at time but that happened quite rarely.
On 29th Sept. as I remember I proposed to Komal while chatting on the net. Well she denied and we continued talking as friends. Chatting everyday I thought she has started to understand me but that proved wrong in the later run. Also there were incidents with some fake ids by the name of suyash which as Komal said used to send her vulgar e-mails. I tried to sort it out but while doing that I noticed that those e-mails were written in a fashion resembling to the way Utkarsh talks. I knew it was just someone trying to cause a ridge b/w our friendship.
Now after the pre-boards it was the time for the much awaited Farewell. The Farewell went fine and the after party sucked at some level. Everyone was looking great and it was something I had waited for. I still remember I got there with Soheb and Anuj. When we reached there the principle Bro. George was livid for us being so late. Something that had happened before too. But in the end all went well. Lots of photos were clicked and the performances were good. Shashank's poem was extra-ordinary.
Soheb, Saini and myself got together after the farewell and made a compilation of all the pictures and videos of the farewell from everyone. We made DVDs and distributed them to as many people we could. It was a nice complilation and even though I had a part to play in the compilation, I for now don't have those pics.
Then came the Boards practicals which went fine.....u know the thing with practicals. After that some of the students including me had to give a second pre-boards as the first didn't go well for us. The second one went good and we were now looking at board exams.
It was Feb and in in lies some vicious days known by the name of Valentine week.
3 days before Valentine's day Komal told me that all the wrong going on with her life has finally sorted out and so I also started to believe that finally the stories have ended. I was very happy that now at least we will have more to talk than to console her for unrealistic problems like her grand parents trying to kill her and all that. Also that day she told me that a guy from School Shantanu has proposed her and she said no. On Valentine's day I did the same and answer was the same. I got ok with it and well started preparing for boards.
Now on 26th Feb, Komal's friend Upasana told me that Komal also has feelings for me and wanted to chat tonight. So I was very excited and was eagerly waiting.
It was past midnight when she told me that she Love me and boy I can't express what it meant for me. 2 years I've been waiting for this moment and it was finally there. It was like a dream and am very thankful to Komal for providing me that short moment of happiness. Amazing it is when you get something you have dreamt about.
Boards began from 1st March with Chemistry exam......don't really remember how well it went. Boards went fine with the dreaded physics exam. Few things happened before that exam too.
Boards finally ended and I joined coaching at Aakash institute in Dehradun. It was a crash course for preparation for AIEEE and JEE. I used to talk to Komal every day now and that time used to be the best time of the day for me.
12th went just fine for me. Soheb and Sharma became the best support for me. Komal became an important part and by the end of 12th I started thinking am living a fairytale. It was the best ending to that class as I thought. Never thought that what lied ahead was equally ugly.
Life had been pretty normal but now the twists and turns have started which help me build emotionally a lot. There were good times and now was time for the bad ones.
But all that in the next post.
Till then take care.
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